Lady Belladonna LaVeau

Money and Love give us the most problem because it's what we want.  It's desire, and of the fire realm, we have to have it in balance or it will burn us.  But it's also necessary for our very survival.  Without love you are not truly alive, and without money you cannot meet your physical needs which ultimately will lead to death.  It causes people to panic, focus on their need, and turn to God.  When everything is going great, people rarely turn to God.  It's when you have a real need that you search within and grow in spirit.  It's the challenge that makes you a better person.  Be up to meet the challenge like a warrior in your life.  All challenges are made to hone you and make your stronger.  So, greet each day with the gusto of knowing that those that you meet, and all that you encounter is designed to be just the right amount of resistance to help you grow, and attack it with glee.  Know that on the other end of each challenge is a reward.  Sometimes it's love.  Sometimes it's money.  Sometimes it's something far better than all those things.

Unrequited love

I've had a good many of my readings this week be about unrequited love.  Someone has a crush on someone else, who isn't reciprocating those feelings.  When love comes knocking on your door, but your lover missed the call, it's maddening, frustrating, heartbreaking, and confusing.  Straight out rejection is painful but quick.  Having a crush on someone, who is enjoying leading you on can be a slow road to insanity.

Why does this happen?  Why would one person feel so strongly for another, only to find out that the other isn't that into you.  First you think you've really got something, next thing you know you're stood up, and have placed three unreturned calls.

We are often drawn to people for various reasons.  Usually it's to learn a life lesson.  Sometimes people are ready to learn those lessons, and sometimes they run from them like the plague.  Rejection often means, "You're going to make me feel too deeply, and I'm scared of that."

Sometimes we are drawn to someone because we knew them in a past life.  We react to them in ways that are uncharacteristic, or out of sequence with real events.  We aren't supposed to be with that person in this lifetime, but we can't help but feel the strong pull to their soul from lifetimes past.  It's painful to not interact with these people, but their life doesn't coincide with yours, and the river of destiny pulls you each down your own path without the other.

Whatever the reason, it's an uncomfortable situation to be sure.  How's the best way to handle it?  Keep your options open, and don't get attached.  Know that you're going to end up with who you're supposed to end up with, and only when you're ready.  So breathe, and plan a night out with the girls.  Dance, flirt, and have a great time.  Don't wait on a phone call.  Don't wait at all.  If in two months you get that romantic phone call, then let it be a surprise.  Until then, live it up, you won't be single forever, and there will come the day that you miss it.

Venus is Retrograde and heading for Mars conjunct Uranus, all in Pisces.  This means that lovers are missing the mark, mis-communicating, temperamental, impatient, and wanting to make unnecessary radical changes in their lives for the promise of love.  The illusion of Pisces makes it all watery and suspect.  Don't trust any of it right now.  Try to breathe through the crazy emotional roller coaster that we are all on and know that Venus goes direct tomorrow.

People often ask me how I became a psychic.  Well, I got dropped on my head as a kid.... I fell after receiving a vision..... I uh..... I hit my head on the bottom of a pool real hard....... I...... Um, ..... my natal chart says I'm supposed to be psychic...... Um,..... I don't know.  I didn't BECOME psychic, I just AM.  I've talked to God since I was a little girl.  I really didn't know everyone else couldn't do it until I was a teenager.  I use to practice telling my friends what they were thinking.  I was always right.  It was fun.

I've always been spiritual.  I mean, when God talks to you, how can you not be spiritual? 

I have a different view of the world.  It's sometimes called Bella Land, or Bellatopia, and I'm ok with that.  I see the world through the unique perspective of a High Priestess with 20 years of intense magical training, and sometimes that's a bit disarming.   In my world everyone is important.  Everyone has a sacred journey, upon which only they understand.  Everyone has a contract to perform here on the planet.  Everyone, everyday, in every thing they do, walks in a sacred way.  You may one day be an angel, and one day a devil, but you serve the balance and you teach the lessons you are here to teach.  In Bellatopia everyone is a manifestation of God and/or Goddess, depending on how you want to look at it, and here to do his/her/their work.  So, I'm starting this page to share my unique perspective of the world with you.  Who knows maybe we'll both learn something.